Dear Oahn,
If I had a choice, all the decisions that I have already made, I would change them. At least, all my bad decisions. I think that if a genie came to me and offered me a wish that could change my life forever, I don’t know which one I would make. If I have the choice to stay on Zwilling or to go to Alzuza, would I take the choice of staying or leaving? If I had the choice to choose between my current life or the one I dream of having, which one would I choose? If I had the choice between different jobs, which one should I choose to represent me the most? If I had the choice, which one would be the right one?
First of all, I could not choose between Zwilling and Alzuza. Zwilling is my home. It’s here I have lived. It’s where I realized that life will never be easy and that I will have to fight every minute to stay alive. This is where I found the place that allows me to forget all my demons. Where the impossible has become possible. This is the place where I lived the horrors of destiny but also its wonders. Then… Alzuza is the place where I dream of going. The place that my heart wants to discover. The wild place that calls my soul. The place where the challenges of life lie. The place where the continuity of destiny is. The place where the future takes shape.
Secondly, everyone would want once in their life change the course of the latter. To change the monotony of their daily life, whether it be through a trip, a love, the departure of something toxic. But each time they are asked if they prefer their lives filled with darkness or the one bathed in light, they always answer the darkness. Why? Because darkness cannot exist without light, and light cannot exist without darkness. And then, when your end comes, you realize that your life has been beautiful. Maybe you didn’t always love it, but it was enough for you and that’s why you never wanted it to change. So what would be best for me? To continue my current life or to start another one? The choice is quickly made.
Thirdly, many things interest me. Which one of these things would be the representative of who I am? Justice, would it be enough for me to take care of others? To understand the human mind, would it be enough for me to finally understand the world? To be responsible for the words, the acts of others, would it be enough to ensure them the best of protections? To study unusual subjects, would it be enough to keep me awake? To communicate emotions, to expose my thoughts, would it be enough to release the weight that suffocates my heart and my sould? To get in contact with the world of the dead and criminology, would it be enough to increase my gratitude for life? Which one of these job definisions would be best for me? Where would I feel most fulfilled?
If I had the choice, I wouldn’t know where to go. Choosing which path to take is not an easy decision. Choosing to go to the right or to the left can change your life forever and for now, I prefer to keep walking one the road that faces me.
If I had the choice, I wouldn’t take any, preferring the wind to carry me.
If I had the choice, everything would be so much easier.
If I had the choice, the current present would be totally different.
– Andros